This one is different. This kid in my belly. She's different. She's not like my Hannah. She's hyperactive and constantly on the go, but every time I try to talk to her or touch her (my belly), she stops moving. :( Hannah never did this.
#1 I feel like I haven't bonded with her yet. I know that I have plenty of time for that, but still! Hannah and I were buds long before she came out of the womb! I talked to her every day. She tickled and punched my hands almost every day. Charlie is different. She never wiggles when I'm paying attention to her and I have hardly felt her movements with my own hands. I'm pretty sure Chris has felt more than me! It makes me sad a little. Although, I shouldn't be sad. She will be in my arms 70-80% of the day when she's born.
#2 I'm scared that I won't be able to show Hannah enough attention and affection during the first months. Hannah is my first little princess. My first baby. She's my pride and joy! I know that a lot of second time mom's fear that they may not love their second child as much as the first, but I worry that I won't be able to show Hannah that I love her, at least as often as I do now! I don't want her to feel neglected or rejected! (That's why this mama has a plan to make mommy-daughter dates a tradition! - future post!) What if I unintentionally ignore her and reject her for days before I even realize what I've done? I'd be mortified!
#3 Their room isn't put together yet. The changing table isn't out. The bassinet isn't out. I don't have diapers. I don't have Hannah's old onesies out and available yet. Toys, puzzles and books are everywhere and unorganized. Their room isn't painted. Although that isn't life or death, I want to accomplish it before Charlie gets here so we don't wait months to do it after she's born. We are missing water-proof mattress pads and changing table covers...you get the idea. We've got lots to work on and there's only 9 weeks left!!! Ack!!!
#4 I feel like this birth isn't a huge priority (in my mind) yet. I've hardly thought about it! I have no plan. I'm not in a rush. I haven't even thought about what I need to take with us to the hospital, or what our plan is once we get to the hospital! Nothing's ready and I really don't seem to care that much. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. Hmm.
Okay, end of rant.
Did any of you feel this way, too, with the birth of your second, third, fourth? Any advice for this mama?
